Tuesday, October 18, 2016

The Forgetful Heart

We've all had days that blur endlessly one into another. The same daily routines that leave us mind-numbed and yawning through our lives. However, every once in a while we're given a gift, a glimpse of how life should be. Like flashes from a Hallmark card come to life, these glimpses come in moments so seemingly insignificant, they're easy to miss.

I had one of these moments this morning while dropping off my kids at school. As usual, the circle was packed with cars, bumper to bumper waiting for the crossing guard to give the go ahead to move. The buses had just let out and legions of third, fourth and fifth graders herded toward the main entrance of the school. It was pretty much the same old, same old I saw every morning, but as I watched my kids join the throng, I noticed two boys holding back. They had spotted my fifth grader, and with huge smiles, waited for him on the sidelines. As my son joind his friends, they all fist punched and then laughing, headed in to start their day. I felt a stupid, silly grin spread across my face and my heart swelled. All I could think was, "Wow."

Happy, I pulled out of the circle and onto the street, but as I drove home that momentary feeling of parental euphoria ebbed as I thought about life, about how things change and how I didn't want any part of that change for my kids. How I wanted them to stay happy and innocent the way I saw them just moments before. I don't know why, but for some reason scenes from the movie, "The Breakfast Club," flashed through my mind. The random thoughts were most likely a by-product of caffeine-deprivation, but nonetheless, there they were. Those of us of a certain age remember the movie well, and though there are an equal amount of humorous and poignant moments from the film, imagine my dismay when one line in particular grabbed me as I turned into my driveway: "When you grow up, your heart dies."

I sat in my car a little stunned at where my brain had taken me, and after my initial feeling of, "What the hell...", I thought, "Huh, is that what really happened? Why I was so blown away by such a simple gesture of innocent joy?" I turned off the ignition and looked at myself in the rear view mirror, staring at my reflection as if the answer was hidden somewhere behind my eyes.

With a sigh, I got out of the car and walked halfway toward my open garage door and stopped. It hit me then. It's not that our hearts die when we grow up. It's that we forget to remember that life is simple, that joy isn't quantified by how much we know, how much we have, what we look like or how much success we achieve. We get sidetracked in our busy lives, becoming associates in our marriages and our friendships, believing that life is made up of details.

I went in the house, and shut the garage door behind me. As I climbed the basement stairs, I started to laugh. My caffeine deprived brain had done it again, but this time it was the epilogue from the movie that ran through my head.

...[Mr. Vernon] you see us as you want to see us: in the simplest terms and in the most convenient definitions...But what we found out is that each one of us is a brain...and an athlete...and a basket case...a princess...and a criminal. Does that answer your question?
Sincerely yours, The Breakfast Club


The words still speak to me, but I see them now as a token memory, encouraging me to look past the obvious and see what's really there. That perhaps these little glimpses grab our hearts for no other reason than to remind us of what's important. That joy is right there in front of us, if we have courage to look for it.

So, take inventory of the glimpses shown you and recapture the moments of joy in your own life. Trust me, your forgetful heart can take it.

Originally posted on my blog 'Madcap Moms...What Wrong with this Picture'  May 1, 2012

How independent is too independent?

My daughter is beautiful, smart, athletic, has lots of friends...all the things you would think would make for teenage heaven, right? Of course, right. And on top of all that, she's a parent's dream in that she's not boy crazy yet, like many other girls her age.

Okay, okay...you can stop rolling your eyes at me. I know I should be over the moon she's focused on grades and sports and just being herself. And don't get me wrong, it's not that guys aren't on her radar, they are. She's noticed quite a few and believe me they notice her, too. In fact, just this past Valentine's Day, a guy she knows gave her a beautiful bracelet for the occasion. She was thrilled with the gift and the sweet kiss that followed. So it's not that romance isn't on her list of interests...it's just not something she's interested in chasing.

So, should I worry she's not like the other girls in her class, preoccupying themselves with incessant texts and snap chats to guys and gossiping with their friends over the latest hookups? No. That's not something I'm interested in chasing.

So what should I think about all this disinterest?

I've written blog posts in the past about being a role model for my girls, about teaching them to be independent and to develop their self-worth through action and accomplishment...that the worst thing I could do for them as their mother, is to allow them to believe their value lies in nothing more than being decorative. I think I've accomplished that well through example, rather than just through words. They've been with me every step of the way as I earned my first and second degree black belts, as I started my writing career and my books began to win awards. They've been there when I've had speaking engagements and seen the pictures from the writer's conferences where I've been featured often as a guest panelist. My interests have always been eclectic and I work at my own pace, comparing my own accomplishments against no one else's but my own.

Now I have to ask myself, with all this independence and strength...and I use the words conditionally...swirling through the way I run my life, have my girls gotten so caught up in my tornado of ideas and opinions that I've robbed them of certain rites of passage every girl should experience?

Is there such a thing as too independent?

I feel like Karen Allen, the actress from the movie, The Sandlot Lot, when she tells her son to go out and get into trouble, to get dirty and skin his knees because he's too good to be true. Do I tell my teenage daughter to stop being so focused and to start flirting or do I just let her be herself? Do I need to worry that she's so focused on the goals she's set for herself, that she's forgetting to enjoy the journey...or worse...that she doesn't know how?

Every parent questions whether or not they've made the right choices when it comes to their kids. My hope is I've prepared her enough for her future, and as far as that goes, independence and a clear sense of self-worth is never a bad thing. As to romance and heartbreak as a rite of passage, I guess no one escapes it forever, and when it does come knocking I'll certainly be there for my daughter the same way my own mother was there for me. I just want to make sure my girls look around every once in a while to see that it is there, even if it's only on the horizon. That it's worth its weight in gold to be carefree and even silly sometimes, and that you can have it all. You just have to remember to let it happen.

Originally posted on my blog 'Madcap Moms...What's Wrong with this Picture' March 8, 2013

When ghosts come calling....

A crisp night, a campfire, s'mores and of course...ghost stories. We've all sat mesmerized as creepy tales raise goosebumps, making us move that much closer to the warm body sitting nearest to us. Shadows, creaking branches and a soft moaning wind are enough to make some of us move inside, as if plaster walls will keep us safe from unexplained bumps in the night.

It's that kind of shiver that brings a smile to my face. The furtive glance over your shoulder into the gloom. Spooky tales, especially ones filled with history and mystery make the Halloween season for me.

Spook Rock is book three in The Legend Series, a teen supernatural suspense with splashes of horror, history and of course, romance. The series began with Hollow's End, a story inspired by historic events surrounding the village of Sleepy Hollow...yup...you guessed it....as is the famous Legend of Sleepy Hollow. Incidentally, where my family is from and my children were born. The tale moves to Time Turner, also inspired by history and legend only this time the reader is plunged back in time to 1780 and the intrigues and plots surrounding West Point and the American Revolution, and finally Spook Rock, a tale of possession and a restless spirit and the fight to free their soul from the evil holding them hostage.



I squeezed my eyes closed, shutting out the voiceless conversation with my dead sister. Talia was killed on Halloween night almost a year ago. It wasn’t long after that our mother started having visions of my sister. Problem was, I saw her, too.
Or did I?
Maybe crazy ran in the family. Except, I didn’t really believe that, and that meant Talia was really here…
Hannah Meyer’s teenage life was shattered by evil a year ago. Since then, visions of her dead sister have grown stronger, more insistent, the closer it gets to Halloween and the anniversary of her death. Something is holding Talia hostage from the light and she warns time is running out.
Angel Morales has been Hannah’s best friend since kindergarten, but lately things have changed, pushing the two into uncharted waters between friendship and love, and now, light and dark.
But they’re not alone in this fight to free Talia’s soul. Rowen Corbett and her witchy family have joined the struggle, but will they be enough to send the most powerful evil they’ve ever faced back to hell?


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When Authors Kill...

A conversation I've had with each of my books...

Muse: "He has to die."
"Are you sure?"
Muse nods, then eyes me from the reflection in my mirror. "Yes."
I blink once, then shrug. "It's not like I have any say in the matter, so..."
Muse grins: "I'm glad you finally see reason." She pauses, considering me closer. "Now, the question is how?"

If this sounds like you took a ride on the crazy train, then you know what it's like for me. I'm an author. Our characters talk to us, and our muse is even worse. Mine, in particular, has no respect for day or night. She doesn't care whether I'm in the middle of a REM cycle or in the shower. When she has something to say, I listen...and hopefully I have my laptop at the ready, if not at least a pen and paper near by.

It's nuts, I know. But that's part of the creative process. I've found this notion fascinates most people. They often ask if I have to force myself to write a death scene or if I experience guilt when my story develops to the point I know someone has to die. The answer is no.

That doesn't mean I don't regret losing characters. Villain or hero, each one is my creation and like most authors I get very attached, but when the story calls for it, they have to go. I usually know who pretty quickly, and it's not always the bad guy. Killing off a character is often cathartic, both for me as the author and for the remaining characters in the story. Real life isn't always fair, and people suffer collateral damage every day. I try to keep that feel throughout my books, their paranormal settings notwithstanding.

Collateral Blood is the latest in my Cursed by Blood Saga, and from the very first chapter I knew who would die and how. Like all of my books in this series (and most in my other series) the main thrust of the story is suspense. Romance? Yeah, there's that too, but I love a plot driven thriller, and that's what I try to give my readers.





Want a taste? Here's chapter one of Collateral Blood.


Chapter One


The Red Veil
Vampire Club, New York City
Two am
“You asked to see me?”
Rémy lifted his eyes from his cellphone. “Abigail. Come in.”
The strawberry blonde vampire stepped through the doorway, her expression guarded. “You have news?”
“Sébastien is not returning to New York as expected.”
She frowned, watching the elder shrug into his trademark period-style frock coat. His dark gold hair luminous against the dusky brocade, its silky length dipping to hide the ruined side of his face.
“Why? When last we spoke Sébastien claimed he had outstayed his welcome at Dominic’s villa. I assumed that meant his exile was at an end.”
Rémy grunted. “Exile. Leave it to my brother to invent extraneous drama. He wasn’t exiled, Abigail. He was removed from his seat on the council and his so called sabbatical was more house arrest than holiday. To be honest, Sébastien is lucky he still has his fangs.”
Face impassive, she didn’t comment.
“Your marked lack of curiosity speaks volumes. Then again, your loyalty to your sire was always commendable if not misguided. I will forgive your silence and answer your unasked questions.”
Abigail waited, eyes unblinking.
“Sébastien is not ready to return to his place with us. The council deems him too volatile yet, thus the delay in his return.”
“Council?” She frowned. “You mean you deem him unfit.”
Rémy tucked his wallet and his phone into the inside breast pocket of his coat. “Volatile, Abigail. Not unfit. Although that particular failing does lend itself to your interpretation. It doesn’t matter. Dominic thinks him unstable and Carlos and I agree.”
“Dominic? Good God,” she repeated, annoyed. “How can he make an assessment? He hasn’t stepped foot in New York in over a century.”
Rémy nodded. “iPhones are truly a blessing.”
She stared at him open-mouthed. “Dominic facetimed his decision?”
“I was as surprised as you. Over a millennium old and yet it seems he’s embraced the twenty-first century. As the song says, The times, they are a changin’.”
He watched her stunned silence. “Nevertheless, Sébastien has been Dominic’s guest for six months and yet he remains impenitent for his actions against his own kind. Humility was never Sébastien’s strong suit. Not as a human and even less so now. You can’t spend nearly half a millennium lording over those you consider beneath you and not ruffle a few feathers. He has much to account for.”
“Abigail sank into the nearest chair, stunned. “All this because he refused to let the wolves help with the Jane Street shadow house?”
The older vampire stiffened at her question. “Abigail, it’s time you saw your maker for what he is. Sébastien refused help when it was greatly needed. He broke the cardinal rule of a Council Supreme and put his pride ahead of the community. He slaughtered an entire shadow house, vampires and donors alike, because of an imagined insult.”
Rémy’s irritation softened at the pained look on Abigail’s face. “You must understand, my dear. Others have suffered much worse than Sébastien for far lesser crimes. In this day and age news travels at the speed of light, and Sébastien’s involvement in the shadow house destruction is no longer a secret. He may yet face a much uglier fate.”
She exhaled. “He should never have agreed to leave the country.” Her mumbling earned a questioning brow from Rémy.
“You are certainly your sire’s progeny, Abigail. Rome was the perfect choice for what we needed Sébastien to accomplish, and Dominic the perfect mentor. He’s nearly twice as old as Sébastien and myself, so who better to teach any one of us how to adapt?”
Her lips parted and she blinked, but then closed her mouth in a tight line. “I see.”
“Our world is very small, my dear. You would do well to remember that.”
She exhaled again, lifting her eyes to his before nodding in acknowledgement.
“I’m going out. Please make sure the residence is secure once the club closes for the night. The safety of those living within Le Sanctuaire is paramount.”
“Of course. I always do.”
He moved to his desk and lifted a copy of the Daily News from the top of a pile of mail. “I’m sure you’re aware the city has a new scourge.” He turned, handing the newspaper to Abigail.
She shrugged. “So I’ve read. New York has always had its fair share of nutcases. There have been gang related subway slashings for over a year now. It was only a matter of time before a serial killer took center ring.”
“The police came to see me today.”
“Why wasn’t I informed? You shouldn’t be bothered with human minutia.”
“They wouldn’t take no one’s available for an answer. You were at your rest, and my age made me the only one available for a daytime tête-á-tête with New York’s finest.”
Abigail stood, leaving the paper on the chair. “I’m sorry, Rémy. I should have a procedure in place. This will never happen again.” She inclined her head, but jerked her chin up at the sound of his chuckle.
“Abigail, when will you finally realize I am not Sébastien? My brother may enjoy keeping his nose in the air, but I don’t. I was happy to help.”
At her silent nod he gestured to the newspaper. “It seems the latest victim of this serial maniac had a Red Veil stamp on her hand. The police came to canvas the staff, questioning if anyone remembered seeing her at the club recently.”
“I see. Were any able to help?”
“A few. The detectives requested our surveillance tapes.”
“But the backrooms…” she started.
Rémy lifted a hand. “Those are of no interest to the police. The girl in question was not on the VIP list nor was she anyone’s special guest. The surveillance we provided for their investigation was of the club’s main floor and bars. No more. Do you understand?” He fixed her with a pointed look.
“Of course.”
“The ugly incident was most likely a coincidence. However, I want extra security in place just in case. Every door, inside and out, especially the ones leading to the backrooms. The NYPD has a job to do, but I draw the line there. The Red Veil is both our sanctuary and playground. I’d like to keep it that way.”
“I’ll make the arrangements as soon as I get downstairs.” She watched as he finished readying himself for the night, and a small smirk tugged at her lips. “Meeting Jenya?”
A genuine smile lit his face, softening the ruined flesh scarring his one side. “She’s hunting tonight. It’s a new moon.”
“Central Park?”
He nodded. “She likes to clear the vermin, if you know what I mean.”
“And who better? New York is overrun with the two-legged kind these days.”
He shrugged. “I told her I would keep her company.”
Abigail didn’t comment, but she understood the subtext. Rémy needed to keep Jenya in line. The Russian vampire had come a long way in channeling her cruel beginnings into something positive, but she definitely held the inclination to kill creatively.
“Will you be back tonight or should I call the Shadow House on East 81st Street and arrange for dawn accommodations? They have the rarest blood types, and Jenya’s favorite is currently in residence at the donor hall.”
Impressed, he smiled at her. “As efficient as ever, Abigail, but I sense thoughtfulness in your resourceful nature that wasn’t there before. It seems your time with the wolves has tempered you.” He paused, meeting her eyes. “Personally, I find this softer side very becoming.”
She blushed, as much as a vampire can, and the two walked out toward the private steel-reinforced doors in silence. With a nod, Abigail headed back to the club and Rémy turned toward the exit and the alley outside.
The scent of fresh blood and residual violence hit his nostrils the moment he stepped into the darkness. Holding still, his fangs pierced his gums, descending instinctively, and he peered into the encompassing shadows. No body heat or movement registered in the concentrated gloom.
He took a step and an unexpected crunch drew his gaze. The Red Veil’s motion-activated spotlights lay in smashed shards on the pitted asphalt. “Damn.”
It wasn’t the first time vandals and thieves had tried their luck. If they knew what horrors awaited in certain backrooms at the Red Veil, they’d avoid the alleys surrounding the club like the plague.
Still, the scent of blood was too overpowering for superficial cuts from a few shattered lights. His fangs tingled.
Tall concrete on either side of the alley made for thick darkness under normal circumstances, but no light and no moon made the gloom nearly impenetrable. Even for a vampire. He thought to call for Dash or one of the other wolves, but then dismissed the idea. Night vision was not his strongest gift, but he had other skills that more than compensated for any bump he might encounter in the night.
He focused his senses and walked into the murk toward the heady copper scent, allowing his eyes to adjust.
“Damn,” he muttered again, along with a string of other expletives. A lifeless body dangled from the side of the building. A woman. She hung by her feet from a steel reinforced pole, vandalized brackets on either side of her dead weight.
Rémy exhaled and dug in his pocket for his phone. “Abigail. Have security come to the south exit. Now.”
Slicing the yellow nylon rope holding her suspended, he moved the dead woman to the ground. Her throat had been slit wide, yet only splashes of blood coated the blacktop in a hollow circle directly below where she hung.
Rémy drew his fingers through the viscous fluid, lifting the bloodstained tips to his nose. Still fresh and barely cooled. She’d been dead less than an hour.
But why? Her blood was barely congealed, so it was obvious she was killed here. The asphalt should be a river of blood, not mere spatters.
Rémy glanced over his shoulder and frowned. Where was security? He scrolled through the contacts on his phone again, the blue ambient light from its screen casting shadows along the ground No doubt, the woman was murdered. They were going to need specialized help clearing this mess.
A flash of silver caught him unawares, a hand knocking his cell phone from his grip. Before he could react, searing pain sliced through his cold flesh as a razor sharp blade slashed his throat, burning silver puncturing his jugular.

Rémy’s hand flew to the wound, his eyesight narrowing as his fingers tried to stem the flow of black blood. He peered into the darkness for his assailant’s identity but his vision failed. He slumped to the ground beside the dead woman, the sound of muffled panic and footfalls thick in his ears.

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Monday, May 2, 2016

Fraud or just Foul?

It's been all over Facebook recently. The idea of unscrupulous behavior. It's not Wall Street or Washington, as you might think. It's so everyday it might be something you dismiss, but when looked at with an ice cold eye, speaks volumes about certain people. Especially today.

I'm usually a live and let live person. I don't do politics and I try very hard not to judge, but in this instance I feel compelled to speak my peace.

Dishonesty is a character trait I despise. It goes hand-in-hand with lying and trying to get-over. Next to hate and intolerance, if there was ever a phrase and an ideology I'd like to eradicate it would be that. Getting over on someone smacks of snide disregard, of entitlement and a self-deluded belief that you are above doing what's right.

Like I said, this is not about Wall Street or Washington. It's about books. More importantly, it's about people who feel they have the right to steal what they deem should be theirs for free.

"It's a victim-less crime."

I've heard that argument before, and quite frankly it's bullshit, plain and simple. There are victims. Authors are the victims. This is as much a crime as if you put your hand in their pockets and stole cold, hard cash. Writing is an author's job, and books are the products they sell. Sell...not giveaway. Many authors reeling from this dishonest sense of entitlement are independently published, so countering with the argument that publishing houses have millions so it doesn't hurt anyone is just more self-deluded BS.

But this isn't about pirating...although that's bad enough on its own. This is far worse because this cuts an author to the core. It rips their heart out and watches as it bleeds.

I'm talking about readers who buy an author's book, read it, love it and then return it because they say they can't afford it, and worse yet, claim the books should be free because praise alone should be payment enough. Wrong! It's as wrong as ordering a meal in a restaurant, eating it, praising the chef, and then refusing to pay the check because the menu was too expensive.

Again...I call bullshit.

Most people are not independently wealthy. They have to work for a living. If their boss praised their work, told them how good they were at their job, but then informed them they were no longer going to pay their salary because they were so good at their job it should be free, there would be a march on said employer!

So what makes that employer so despicable, so callous and unjust, BUT it's okay for readers to download pirated books (stolen property) or read books, enjoy them, and then return them for a refund? Free market enterprise? Uhm...maybe you should look the term up in the dictionary.

If you value the work you do in your job, then what makes it okay to devalue someone else's work? An author's work? There's only one definition for this kind of mindset and the behavior that ensues and that is fraud...and it IS foul...and in the case of books read and enjoyed and then returned, it is also premeditated dishonesty.

If you want free books, go to the library. Or join an author's newsletter. They'll shower you with freebies and goodies. I know I do with my readers. Otherwise, pay for the goods and services you enjoy like everyone else does. Stop trying to get over. It's ugly. It's wrong, and if was done to you, chances are you'd be screaming foul louder than the rest.

Marianne Morea

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Intrigues and love triangles, sex and sin...

History is full of sexy stories. Intrigues and love triangles. Sex and sin. Stories of seduction and betrayal captivating audiences for as long as time has been recorded. From the books of the bible through the oral legends of ancient Ireland and the Celts, the romance of the highlanders and the exploits of Greek and Roman Gods, sex definitely sells. It's no different today, so no wonder steamy stories are still among the bestsellers lining our bookshelves, often surrounding the plots with the very myths that set our imaginations and libidos soaring!

I've always had romance and sex in my books. A natural coming together of hero and heroine, but lately I've decided to let my characters spend a little more time between the sheets while they're between the pages of their respective stories.

Why? Because sometimes being bad feels pretty good!

Naughty and nice aren't mutually exclusive, and nice girls like to walk on the wild side, too! I'm definitely a member of the naughty and nice club, and to celebrate that I've decided to write these novellas!

Interest piqued? Wanna hear more?

Most of you know my Cursed by Blood Saga of supernatural thrillers. To spice things up I've taken characters and elements from these stories and created a new series of novellas titled The Red Veil Diaries...yup, named after the dangerously seductive Vampire Club from my book Twice Cursed.  It's starts with CHOOSE ME...a short BBW novelette featuring a super hot vampire named Miguel!





Never one for the party scene, Rose Landry is content with life. Quiet but independent, she has a bright career, friends and family. She's comfortable, and exactly where she always thought she'd be. But something is missing. A need she's denied until a chance meeting brings her face to face with a shadowed world she only dreamed existed, awakening her most wanton, secret desires. His name? Miguel Leon. Seductive and dark, he opens her to pleasures that only live in fantasy and the supernatural, leaving her craving more of him and where their passion might lead.

To be honest, reading erotic romance was as much a guilty pleasure of mine as watching reality TV, but writing it was much more fun...but whoa was it hard work! You would think writing about seduction would be as easy as closing your eyes and fantasizing about your hottest book boyfriend! But it's not...there are layers to seduction...emotions and physical reactions a writer needs to capture before they get to the bump and grind. Research was never so exhausting and satisfying at the same time! *wink wink*

The RED VEIL DIARIES continues with TEMPT ME, TEASE ME AND TASTE ME available now.



The Vampire Bitch…
Control is something Abigail Bigly lives for—that and watching those beneath her, twist. She’s scratched her way to the top of New York’s vampire inner circle, reveling in her position as proprietor of The Red Veil, the city’s trendiest hot spot and underground center of their shrouded domain. However, being a member of the vampire elite doesn’t mean you can deny your master. When she’s ordered to work closely with one certain Were, she can’t refuse no matter how strongly she objects.

The Forbidden is the Hardest to Resist.
Sent to help keep New York’s shadow houses clear of the deadly virus that nearly wiped out the vampires of New York, Dash Collier has his work cut out for him. Especially when teamed with a woman who’d sooner tear his heart out and eat it than look at him. But neither is prepared for the rush when dangerous passions ignite, crushing old taboos. Is it simply hate-born lust or could it be something more?


So? Has the Red Veil Diaries sparked a tingle of interest? I hope so because there are more scheduled for release throughout the spring.

Here's wishing you all a happy, healthy and SEXY New Year! I hope 2016 brings all that you desire...and even a few secret ones as well!

Marianne Morea






Monday, June 8, 2015

Teaser chapter for My Soul to Keep!

Here is a teaser chapter for my newest release slated for August 1st, 2015! The book is My Soul to Keep, an angels and demons urban fantasy and I hope these few pages whet your appetite for the rest!




Chapter 1
“I
S that for your eyes only or do you plan to share with the rest of the class?”
The deep voice came from the other side of the room, but Michael didn’t look up. His silver eyes focused on his sword and the image glinting back at him from the blade’s flat surface.
“Azrael,” he finally acknowledged, lifting his head as the steel’s celestial glow dimmed along with the woman’s smile. “I didn’t hear you come in.”
With a muffled snick, Az closed the heavy oak door behind him. He eyed the top of the archangel’s head, the man’s posture bowed over clasped fingers as though in prayer, but Az knew better. Michael never prayed. Not anymore. Ironic, considering he carried the Sword of God.
The simple chamber was dark and its hearth cold, but Azrael had no problem seeing. Michael’s large four poster bed was rumpled, its cotton sheets in an agonized knot. A telltale sign he wasn’t at peace. Then again, he hadn’t been for millennia.
Michael looked up, his silver eyes shifting to a more human brown. Emotions warred in their rich depths. Emotions alien to the angelic choirs. Or at least they used to be. Love and loss and a slow burning ache for vengeance pooled in the liquid light. That and an overwhelming need to protect. Michael’s eyes held the perfect storm of contradictions.
Azrael stepped forward, his gaze studying his friend as he sat by the unlit fire. “What are you doing? Keeping tabs on humanity is not your job and interaction with the mortal plane is the sole responsibility of the sixth choir and the lower angels. The Powers and the Guardians. They’re your watchers. Not the other way around.”
“I know, Az. I’m the one who gave them their assignments, remember? Tell me, the Angel of Death tired of slumming it or have the Dominions called you to face the judiciary again?”
He snorted in reply. “Nice. I come for a visit and you insult me. Considering you’re holed up in here like an ordinary denizen, I could ask the same of you. What’s up with you, anyway? Intercession isn’t usually your deal.”
Michael didn’t answer.
Azrael exhaled, his eyes concentrating on the turmoil swirling in his brother’s expression. He picked up a book from Michael’s desk and fanned the pages. The center opened to a dried rose, its crumbled outer petals now a delicate red dust along the inside spine.
He lifted the fragile stem between his fingers. “Just as I thought,” Az said before returning the flower to its hiding place and snapping the book shut. “Memories warm the heart, but allowing yourself to get so wrapped in the past you can’t function in the present is quite another thing.”
Dark eyes flashed against Azrael’s blue. “What are you trying to say, Az?”
He shrugged. “You tell me.”
Michael exhaled a harsh breath. “I know my obligations. Hell, I forfeited my own happiness because them.”
“Forfeited?” Az dropped the book on the desk with a muffled thud. “You make it sound like you had a choice. We’re bound, or have you forgotten that little tenet.”
“Not all of us.”
With a snort Azrael sunk into the vacant chair beside Michael. “You can’t be serious. After all this time you’re still making this about Luce?”
He waited for Michael’s protest, but the archangel kept his gaze on the cold stone hearth.
“The favorite.” Az made a an ugly sound. “The one whose name means bringer of God’s light. What a crock.”
“I will never forgive the pain he caused, but he certainly made his point.”
Az laughed. “And look where Luce’s choices lead him, yet you’re the one sitting silent and brooding.” His faced sobered at Michael’s wounded expression. “Let it go. You are a prince of heaven with nine choirs to oversee.”
“Ten.”
“No, brother. The Blessed are no longer celestials. You were there when they were weighted and sent down.”
Michael sniffed. “Weighted. That’s dogmatic code for giving them a mortal expiration date.”
“It’s not your fault.”
His dark blond head bobbed in acknowledgment, despite the anguished shadow crossing his face. “I know.”
Azrael leaned forward in his chair, laying a hand on Michael’s slumped shoulder. “Celestine and the others had no choice. The tenth choir was a divine mistake.”
Michael grunted at the words. “Don’t say that too loud or instead of collecting souls for judgment you’ll be on your way to the fires along with them. Ours in not to question why, remember?”
“Celestine and her sisters knew their earthbound fate was the only way to save heaven.”
Michael pushed a hand through his hair, the thick mass sliding through his fingers like honeyed silk. “Except their sacrifice didn’t save heaven. Luce wanted war. He pushed for a fight and Celestine was the means used. I know it and you know it.”
Az lifted his hand. “Michael, you need to let this go.”
“No, Az. Things are bad. More of our brethren are forfeiting their wings than ever before. They’re falling for Luce’s lies and the sovereignty he promises.” A harsh exhale left his mouth as he scrubbed his forehead in frustration. “If you were here more, you’d see what I mean.”
Michael’s eyes locked on Azrael. “I don’t have to remind you why Blessed were created. Instead of giving us a sense of physical love to mirror the divine they were an unwitting catalyst for war, leaving us with nothing but a sense of pain and regret.”
Az shook his head. “Michael, if you took your head out of your ass for one moment you would see the Blessed did exactly what they were supposed to do. Pain and regret are everyday human emotions, especially at the moment of death. I should know. I collect their souls as they cross. Celestine was special, and as the humans say, it’s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.”
“Try it sometime.”
“Thanks, but after watching your sorry ass mope for a millennium, I think I’ll pass.” Az smirked, squeezing Michael’s narrow shoulder before rising from the edge of his chair. His eyes glanced toward the dark silver of Michael’s blade resting against the angel’s thigh. “The girl…” he gave a chin pop in the sword’s direction. “Is she who I think she is?”
Michael nodded. “She is one of three.”
Azrael whistled low. “Let’s hope no one else knows or Luce will have a field day. As you said, he’s gaining more ground now than ever before.”
Michael stood as well, reaching for his scabbard on the opposite side of the chair. “The three have no idea who they are or from where they are descended,” he replied, belting the leather holder and sheathing his sword with a single push. “…or of the power they hold, for that matter.”
“It’s not their ignorance that worries me. It’s who else might discover them before their time. Let’s pray it doesn’t come to that.”
Michael nodded. “From your mouth to God’s ears.”
The Angel of Death snorted. “That’s if he’s even listening.”

***
“Give me a break, Rafe. Now I know why Michael paired us together. I’m an optimist and you’re a pessimist.”
A loud snort echoed in the strained silence. “I’m not a pessimist, Zach. I’m a realist.”
Zacharias shot him a pointed look.
“Come on! You can’t possibly hold out hope for the Fallen we’re keeping tabs on.” Rafe paused, lifting one hand. “Okay, I’ll grant Daniel…maybe…but not Samuel, not without divine intervention, and definitely not Kez. Never.”
Zacharias walked toward his desk and picked up a heavy, gold embossed book waving it in the air in front of him. “The rules are clear. Azrael can’t touch them and neither can Luce. Their souls are captive and you know what that means.”
Rafe shook his head. “Purgatory? Now that’s a laugh.”
Dropping the book with a thud, Zach leaned forward on the desk. “And there’s your problem in a nutshell. You’re not here because you were chosen as a sentinel, you’re here because no one wants to listen to your judgmental bullshit!”
“Judgmental? Me?”
Zach nodded. “Yes…Y.O.U. Sin is sin and redemption is redemption, and in case you’ve forgotten that’s the name of our game here.”
Rafe crossed his arms in front of his chest. “Game?”
A long sigh escaped from between Zach’s teeth. “You know what I mean.”
“I get your meaning, all right.” Rafe spread his hands wide. “It’s okay for Daniel to thumb his nose at us, and for Kezef to suck the souls from whoever he pleases, and I don’t even want to talk about Sam…yet they still have a get out of jail free card. But us? We’ve been stuck here forever. I don’t know about you, but I’d like to go home at some point.”
Eyes narrowed, Zach straightened, his cloaked wings twitching behind him.
Rafe flung his hand out. “Don’t give me that look, and you can stop your posturing. I can see your wings as clearly as you can see mine. You spout off about my attitude, but at least I’m not sticking my head in the sand, halo first. Whatever Fallen we keep tabs on, we missed the boat on what we were sent here to do. We lost contact with the Blessed centuries ago and since then Luce has all but taken over.
“It’s time to fish or cut bait and let Michael know we failed.” He paused. “Unless you’re too afraid you’ll end up in purgatory as well instead of earthbound with me babysitting what’s left of angel-touched humans?”
The two stared at each other for a moment before Zach sunk into his high-backed swivel desk chair, the leather letting out an audible puff under his six foot, four inch frame. “Michael already knows.”
Rafe’s mouth dropped open. “How? When? Why didn’t you tell me?”
With a shrug, Zach exhaled roughly. “I told him a long time ago.” His eyes met Rafe’s.” I told him it was my fault.”
Jaw tight, Rafe stared at his brother angel. Zach had taken the blame for them both.
“Zacharias…no…”
Zach lifted his palm. “It’s done. To be honest, Michael sensed it even before I approached. He’s been searching alongside us ever since I fessed up. If word got out, Luce would have a field day and we’d lose the tentative hold we have on those Fallen still wavering in their decision to go dark. You know as well as I more than just a few were coerced. Many now regret their decision to trade their wings.”
That’s true.” Rafe slumped into a chair in front of the desk. He glanced up, his eyes meeting his brother’s grim face. “What do we do now?”
Zach shrugged again. “Keep looking.”
Rafe didn’t answer, just kept his eyes on the thick book on Zach’s desk. “It’s glowing again.”
Zach fingered the pages. The book’s light bringing a sigh to his lips. “It’s been doing that a lot lately.”
Rafe pushed himself up from his chair and went around the desk, but before he could say a word the sky outside darkened and the wind picked up volume and speed. At the sudden tempest, the two looked at each other.
“What the…” Rafe’s words cut short as he threw his arm up covering his eyes as the glass from the French doors burst inward, showering shards across the library.
The broken frame burst open and gusts whipped across the room, the book’s pages flipping wildly until everything stopped.
The two looked at the image left open on the page. It was Michael on his knees, his arms around a woman’s hips and his head pressed to her waist. The words below the woodcut glowed golden.
Seek, and you shall find…”
A scion was close.

...TO BE CONTINUED.